to really write about the present

what i am doing right now
writing a personal letter
at the tail-end of 27
i strive to walk hallowed halls
for posterity's sake
for expectations' sake
for ambitions' sake
for Tori's sake
for hapiness's sake
for spirit's sake
for an existence-void-of-non-existence's sake

home the geography is a difficult territory
necessitating pushes and shoves
and back-against-the-walls

this strive can fall through
founded on yo yo resolve
there's a time frame
can/might/will still shimmy through
do
DO!
polly
DO!

What it feels like for a girl

When I do the work and the work
When I watch my hemlines and my necklines
When I watch my mouth and what I put in it
When I go to church and when I pray
When I get good grades and over achieve
When I sever ties to make way for purported new ties
When I don’t get on a plane to see the hills every morning

Why is it not enough?
Why am I not ‘perfect?’

Back backwards bending
Just so I can accommodate my heritage
I cherish my heritage
Not so much, that I break.
Thank you.
No perfect daughter/sister/wife/woman.
I pledge my allegiance to sin woman